Hati berbisik~~~~

malam bertandang..
hati berbisik..
mengenang cerita derita...
yang daku pendam..

kata menguji...
cuba untukku sudahi..
berulang air mata...
membasahi...

aku kini..
perlu berdiri..
walau hakikatnya pasti...
kan melukai......

aku ingin....
semua rasai...
kerna pengakhirnya hidup
ku sendiri....

Oh Tuhan
Kau berikan
aku segala kekuatan
meneruskan perjalanan.......

aku ini perlu berdiri
walau hakikatnya pasti
kan melukai.....

aku ingin semua rasai
kerna pengakhirnya hidup
KU SENDIRI...............

kerna pengakhirnya hidup
KU SENDIRI...............

cite lagi!!!!

yuhuhhhhh....
mak itam beranak lagi ......
4 ekor....
ok....snap jap pic anak2 die..ek

tido je keje...


yg sekor ni...grang gler...nk tdo pun xnk skali...ish3....penah dijerkah oleh die...wawa..smpi tumph air mse tgh pegang gelas ..gler garang...

cumei...cumei..kan??

actually mak itam bukan mine...hehe
ntah spe ntah..sume kcing2 kt taman paduka ni..kumpul blkg umah
yelar.org lain mne bg mkn..
yg setia kt blkg tu..ade 4 ekor..
kdg2 rmi..entah dr mne dtg..nye

mak itam ni..da lme dah branak ..tp mggu lps..
sbb mmg xde org duk kt ast..tibe2 ade dgr bnyi anak kucing
dh la kuat gler...mlm2 msti bnyi..
g jenguk..oww...dia angkut anak2 die..
msuk dlm stor kt ats tngga..

aku ltak dlm kotak ni...eh3..mak itam angkut blik ltak dlm almari ksong tu...
sian lorr...stor tu panas nk mati lau tgh hari..mlm br sejuk..
gler...nak ank ko mati kpanasan ke mak itam...
haha..pdn muka kne bebel...kui3

tu je cite mak itam ngn anak dia 4 ekor...

p/s= yene, sowie...blog ak dh x lyan awards ke tag ke...hahaha
da mls gler...cuak...ke BORING an mlampau....ha ha

blog..maafkan daku...

minta ampun ye wahai blogku..
entahla...sekarang ni..macam rase takde semangat lak nk update blog..
nk on9 pon da jarang...tapi still kene on9 jgak dalam sehari...
adoi...kuatnye aku berjalan..
g sane sini...lagi2 kat kbmall...
4 kali aku gi kbmall mggu ni..
duit ade sengkek je..haha...
jalan je lbey..
window shopping..
bdak2 ni la..ajak..ak join je la

erm...rini dapat maktab punye interview..
adoii lmbt gler 21 mac..
ak x mntak ppc..hehe..sbb de sbjek sains yg kntoi..x dpt nk tlong..hehe
dpt mktb tu pun..skola rndh je...sains
alhamdulillah la...sbb rmi gak mmbe ak mntk x dpt..
npe ek?ntahla....KetentuanNya kan..kita redha..

sume org pelik..nape ak x dpt mtrx??
sbb ak x mntak..haha
sengal x aku??
bkn ape..mmg mntak..tp lupe nk check semula...ade lg yg lubang2..
engtkn da isi sume...ble da tmt tmpoh isi..br tr'ingt...xpela..
xde rzki kan...nway..lau dpt pon..xnk g mtrx..wawawa..seb bek x mntk..lau x..mesti mama suh amek mtrx gak..

adoi..jpa nye rsult x kuar lg..
japan n prncis je dh kuar..
tp ak mntk kt australia....biler la nk tau?
x arap papepun..tp yela..nk tggu ...cuak gak...

stu lgi..kwn ak ckp...
upu tau 3 ari sblom mtrx dftr..mknenye
8 hb la....
n btolke lau dftar matrix...automatic name kite dlm upu akn di reject???
ramai yg ckp gitu maaaa......
ak xde la risau..sbb x mntk pon mtrx..
tp kwn2 ku yg lain..la
rmi yg nk msuk mtrx dl..lau dpt upu..nk kuar..
hmmm...ak pun nk tggu upu...
nk sgt asasi law...tuh...

nyesal gak npe x mntak law under jpa tuh..
x prsan ade law..adoii..
nk wat cmne.mnde da lps...jgn diungkit lgi..
trime je ape yg diberi...kan?

herm....lame nye nk tggu bln 5 ni...
da cuak gler duk umah
nk on9 pun da boring ni...
huhu....skrang aku dah x jadi brung hantu lgo...
sbb tiap2 ari ade aktvti...hehe
jd msuk mlm je msti da letih..tido awl...
bgn pun awl...hehe
sleep cycle ku dah normal blik....yeyeyey
spatutnya esok g gnung stong ni
tp nak wat camne...xde rezki kan..

tiap2 ari aku kuar...
xkuar pon...mmbe dtg umah..on9
hehe...
tu je la kot diari untuk ari ni..
nnti lau ade mse..update lgi..
babai blogku...
huhuuh

sabtu 18.4.09

hmmm.....
jumaat tu kan...
c.sue n c.teh ak dtg umah..
pekena mee sup kt umah c.tie kat pngkalan chepa..huhu
pstu diorg ajk g jln2 esok kb..hehe
pelagi..ak ikut je la...
dh 2 org tu x kawen2 lgi...dh kje..gaji kire 4 angka la....hehe
syok la ak..lau g jln2...msti dpt brg gak..haha
sorg 26 n sorg lgi 29..huhu
mlm tu tdo kt umh atuk la kt wakaf bharu...
syok....pgi2 mndi air kolah..
sejuuuuuuuukkkkkkkk...huhu
kui 10 pg..ktaorg g kb...
g ats pasar mpkb...hehe...dpt stu tdung free..hoho
pstu g jln2 lgi...dpt lgi blouse free....wne klabu..
dpt to4 RM10....lg..ak sk...sk...sk.......

ni kt umah atuk..amalin..smpat pose lg..huhu


pstu g kbmall....hmm..kt cni x dpt pape..
c.sue suh plih la slipar mse g tgk2 kt kdi ksut..ak ckp..xpelah...
lgpun..br je beli 2 ksut br..x smpi sminggu pon..huhu
g mkn kt noodle station...weeee..mkn sea food tomyam..
bapak r rmi gler owg kt sne...
kbtulan sabtu..cuti..
lg stu ade ujibakat cr pelakon..ape entah
yg pnting kt ats tu...adoi...sesak gler...
bdk2 r rmi...lepak je kje..ish..


hehe..ni kt ats psr mpkb...tau x diorg mkn ape tu...mkn mangga cicah sambal belacan...m.cik2 ni...wat ak tliur je...snap kjap ek..m.cik.gmba...hoho...

cerita ceteraku~~~

jumaat 17.4.09

pgi kui 8.00 lg..
cam biase bdk2 dtg uma..mama wat 2syen..
RM5 je sorg...9.00-10.30..kjap je
bkn ape, matematik bdk2 ni byk lemah lg..kurg2 mak ak ckp..
atleast lulus pun dh ok..bdk2 drjh 6...klas ujung2 la nih..
lgpun ade yg x mmpu nk 2syen kt luar kan...
apa slhnye...pgi jumaat..berkat...hoh0ho
tp aduss..biase dlm 17/18 je org...kdg2 15 je..
tp pgi tu...adoi....24 org...ish..
x muat lar..umh ak...teres 2 tingkat jer...kt ruang tamu tu..sempit la jgak..
kje aku..hehe...wat air n hidang ape yg ade...

oww..sembang ek...hoho

khusyuk...huhu

ni keadaan mse nk dkt kui 10.30...dh wat muke blurr dah...huhu

lps jamu otak..kite jmu perut plak..ye..hehe

cup kek jela yg ade kt umh nk angkt kt bdk2 ni..huhu

ekspedisi gunung stong

untuk pengetahuan semua
aku ade join ssr
Skuad Sukarelawan Remaja under pertubuhan briged bakti negeri kelantan
.................................

so....nk jadi kan cerita yang sdey
23-25 ni diorang buat ekspedisi mendaki gunung stong..
wawa...kami bdak naim 6 org
wawa, mirah, hanis, aku, wani, n hajar....
x tau nk g ke x...
cmne ni..mirah da knpem xley g
aku...mcm green light tp..
dak2 ni..x cnpem lg
tggi gnung tu...lau x slah ak...
1420 km...kot
adoi...syok tu...tp...
cam x jd je ak bley pgi ni...wawawa
sdeyy tol la....
nk gak mrase daki gnung an...
nk jerit puas2 kt ats tu...lps tnsion
nk dpt rmi kwn
nk dpt pnglman br
pd duk umah on9 je mmnjg...huhu
3 ari je...khmis jmaat sbtu
ahli nye dlm 30+ la..
ok la tuh..kan...
sume bdk2 lpsn spm, stpm...
lgpun...kslmtn ok ..sbb mmg aktvt tahunan daki gnung ni..
kire rmi gak la yg dah bese...kan..
pray for me.......
arap sgt nk g ni...
trikh last bg jwpn n duit...selasa ni
ok la..RM50 je...utk 3 hari...
waaaa....org nk gi...
org g g jgak.......

yene..aku da jwb!!

1.FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU :
haida
mc da
dada
da

2.FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE :
my birthdate lorr 31 jan
my fmly birthdates
erm...12 rabiulawal
lg..ntah la...future birthdate of fmly in law...haha

3.FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES :
0n9
chating
eating
editing my fs, tagged n posting new post..huhu

4.FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
money
money
money
money

(ak gler duit..haha)(tp yg pntg akhirat kan...huhu)

5.FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST :
windu bangat naiminz
windu bangat kisasianz
windu bangat teacherz
windu bangat my akak2 f02...siyez ni...nk duk f02 blik...wawa

6.FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
money
money
money
money
(money can buy anthing..hoho)

7.FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES :
on9
on9
on9
drawing

8.FOUR PLACES OR COUNTRY YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION :
syurga
syurga
syurga
syurga( tp layakkah aku....owh...tidakkk)

9.FOUR FAVOURITE DRINKS :
i suam je
i suam tnpa gula
i suam tnpa pwrna
i suam perisa
(sume sk...lau org blnje..huhu)

10.FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG/HANDBAG :
hp
purse (i/c, money)
kunci rumah
compact powder

11.FOUR FAVOURITE COLORS :
turqoise (smpi skrg ak x reti eja..hah)
merah
ijau
black of kos

12.TOP FOUR HANGOUTS :
kb mall
billion(klu shoping la..murah)
parkway( ak sk main2 kn org yg jge kdi ni...msuk n kuar bpe kli..tp x beli pon..haha...abes spe suh ikut mcm la org nk curi..haha)
kdi kasut(knpem g sje2 testing...bkn nk beli pon....haha)

13.TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH :
myself la
my fmly
my fren
my future fmly in law( but Allah n Rasulullah the most)

14.TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU :
money
money
money
hp


15.TOP FOUR WHO YOU WILL TAG :
aignt
kisas
kisas
kisas( spe nk buat..ak mls nk tagged org)

16.FOUR TOP REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY :
boring
bosan
xde kje
im tagged



SIAP!

ari ni aku kuar

notim intrest pon..
arini aku kuar kbmall n billion jap..
dr kul 10.00-4.00 ptg..
boling+shoping+mkn...
aduss....mlyg gak RM60 td..gilax r...dh r tgh pokai..
ak bli xde ppe pun..
2 ksut n sluar je...
mkn...sket je pun..
ni cmne nk kuar khmis ni plak..
dh r tgh pokai...

eh..td jmpe wahdaty n sarah..
die kuar gak..ngn bdk2 plkn..hohoho

owh ye..de satu cite pelik..
kwn2 ak de sje2 g intrview nk jd cashier kt billion tuh..
die suh congak...mate..yela sbb nk jd cashier kn..
xde mslh..dpt kje tuh..tp yg diorg bengangnye..ade ke mntak stu gmba pasport...tp free hair..
gler ke ape..xpenah dbuat org..nk gmbr freehair...adoi..
so..gudbye je la kje tuh...
pelik kan??
+

aku malas!!!!

no new post.....
malas+no mood+boring

interview jpa...sengal~~~~

herm.....aku i/v 1 april 2009..
kronologi peristiwa=

8.00a.m=smpi di politeknik kok lanas, daftar name, sign, jumpe sabiha, ternampak hakimin n syazwan(dak agama)..
8.30a.m=get ready..tggu turn...tggu...tggu...beramah mesra dgn org ramai...haha..well..tau ape first org kata psl ak?..hmm..sume mcm wat muka takut...n bangga..sbb...bile dtanya skola mane..kisas...npe? grand sgt ke jd ex-kisas ni...pelik tol..dan rmi engt ak amek kos law..adoi..yakin sgt ke cara cakap ak smpi ramai sgka ak amek law..haha..
11.00a.m=akak btugas panggil....get into group...3 boys 1 girls(aku la tuh)n another girl..dah beramah mesra dgn ahli group...tibe2..kne tukar plak..exchange dgn boys...adoii...cmne ni..org da sume da blik..tggl bpe kerat je yg blom..ni npknyer..mmg kne group last la ni..lame gler tggu..kami yg tinggl..4 org..all girls..mmg group last la nih..dah siap boring..x rase pape dah..just nk masuk.n kuar cpat.n blik...xde dah rse nevos ke..cuak ke..adoii....siap smbang2 ngn p.guard lgi..akak brtugas..mmbe2..adoii..gelak2..haha..
12.00p.m=hmm...then akak tu pggil...girls get ready....kami 4 girls..pun sedia la...lps all 5 boys tu kuar..tnye la..asal korg lame sgt dlm tuh...about 1 hour gak la...bese 45 min jer..katenye...panel2 sk sgt dgn diorg..mybe all boys..n sume amek engner..otak sume dh blurr n gler..sbb tuh...diorg byk ckp kot...now our turn...ladies power...haha
12.10p.m=im da lucky no 1...introduce...n stat the discussion..how does climate in malaysia affect the environment..we talk about global wrming, skin cancer, dll....la..sume yg kte blaja la dlm bio..pastu ak tmbh ..tmbh..n tmbh..kje mnmbah jer....byk ckp..ye lar..sume duk diam jer...xkn nk biar gitu jer..diorg blurr dh kot.psl tggu lme..dh x rse pape..skali skale ak wat lawak..panel gelak2...hehe..sje hangatkn suasana..mmg tau..panel2 dah boring..yelar..we're the last...msti dh byk ragam jumpe..dah letih dah...aim ak bkn nk pass pun..just wanna try ang hav fun..hehe

FUNNY....
then prof tu asked another ques....STUDY ABROAD..advntage n disadvntage...
haha..i lov dis topic...mmbe sume bg yg skema...education, get exposed, technology, improve cnfdent, indepndent...haha...smpi turn ak..dh xde pape dah....i said.....haha...again wat lawak lgi...
stdy abroad sbb nk femes...haha...berderai lg panel2 tuh..yelar..ble org tanye kita stdy kt mane..wah..overc...london..uk..japan..australia( in english la)..hehe..then ak add la...info yg skema2 sket..pnglman..n sort of....

ANOTHER SENGAL~~~
hehe...spnjg our discussion...2 org mix malay n english..tp 2 of us x cmpur..tibai jer..yg pnting still speaking in eng(ak la slh sorg)...merapu la..yg pnting..enjoy our i/v..hehe..diorg trimakseh kt aku sbb byk ckp...jd diorg pun smgt lar nk tmbh2 gak..same2 all my fwen hehe...
tp kan..ble nk last da ni...closing part...one of da panel asked...anything u wanna add?
spnjg interview tuh, 3 org panel..hnya 2 je yg ckp..yg sorg lagi..ak nmpk nme tag die..mr.lee..hehe..chinese..duk asyik senyum2 jer..tau la we're malay..speaking pun de yg terbelit lidah..die nmpk cam boring jer..hehe...guess what i've done to him..haha..ntah x tau mne dpt kbranian ini..hehe...mmg di luar..sgkaan....
i'v asked permission..i love hear something from our honourable panel..mr.lee..hehe...ayat btol..
merah2 muka die..hehe..with great smile..he introduced as engineer...sbb tu x minat nk tmbh...bcause kami sume amek sains sosial...not engineer...haha..tp ak ckp la..ade sorg amek engneer....then br la dye tnye mmbe ak tuh..which course..n apply kat mane...hehe...
sengal x aku?ahaks...

slumber jer...i've asked permission to let membe tepi aku nih say smthing..dia mcm byk idea tp..kurang bckap....hehe...atleast ak x mnguasai the discussion..tolerant...hohoh....
last one...another addition?..ak angkt tgn lagi...adoii....capub btol...yelar...sume diam jer..
i've told that i really want this scholarship to prove to myself that i can be the best beat the rest and show the best..haha...hidup malaysia...haha...simple but full of energy..cnfident jer....padahal...xmau pun jpa nih..sje je..wat ayat..haha...just have fun..hangatkan suasana...

we end our discussion with prasaan yg lega..n kuar jer dr pntu tuh..gelak gler.....x tahan..haha..naseb baek mmg xde org dah kt situ...ahaks..
adoi.....kdg2 mmg aku akn buat smthing yg du luar jgkaan bile dah terlalu bosan..ahaks...

owh lupe lak...shuhada subri pun kene panel 2 skali...tp die sudah awl lg..group no 2..hehe..
mase tgh tggu mama...mse tuh dah pkul 1.00 lbeh..org2 yg kne sesi ptg..dah ramai..dah..
jumpe la bpe org mmbe lame..n rse cam artis je..ble rmi kerumun nk tau cmne ..ape yg dtnye..haha..ape lagi..capub la lg skali...m.cik2..n p.cik2..pun...suh bg tips....cmne nk jwb..haha...smpatla btegur sapa dgn 2 3 org yg mmg x knal..hehe...ade m.cik tuh siap ajk dtg umah...
p/s= bermesra la dgn sape jer...x kira tua n muda...hehe..

hari sengal+capub..berakhir dgn tidur yg sgt lena...